I am pretty sure I left my religion at the Christian summer camp in1985,
the one where the counselors convinced us
to be excited about playing "Gestapo Tag"
For 20 yrs,
I didn’t know that was where I had left it.
I always thought I left it in the kitchen of our church-owned housing
The day I ran into that uninvited parishioner
in my nightgown.
He was making his kid a sandwich.
Because our door was open.
For awhile,
I could have sworn I left it in Spokane
that morning when I read my older brother’s t-shirt that said
“Piss the devil off.
Listen to Christian Heavy Meta”
But maybe it wasn’t Spokane.
Maybe I lost it
in the migrant shacks
when I was 11.
The day I learned that INS took everybody
but the 2 yr old baby
because the orchardist didn’t want to pay his workers.
I suppose it could have been left in the back seat of that taxi on Haight street in 1995
—the one where the driver stopped traffic to cut me off
and yell at me,
leaning out his open window,
after reading the bumper sticker
on my red, Toyota Tercel that said
“The religious right is neither.”
Could I have forgotten my religion when the Presbyterian pastor’s wife
—a lady with 3 purple hickies on her neck
shared an unsolicited lecture with sister and I about the dangers of
gratuitous “S-E-X“
in Clan of the Cave Bear?
The places where it could have been left
are almost to numerous to count.
It’s been gone a long time.
Sometimes that happens with preacher’s kids.
But Im happy
with blaming it
on that
fucking camp.